27/10/06

// feeling :: sore
// prayer for :: tmr's turnout for svc

Wanna talk about this wonderful dream I had last night...I dreamt that I was part of an Animal Lover Adventure Club. And we were out one day trekking by the mountain side, looking for deers.

Then I saw this stag, a male deer, being shot by some hunter. The stag fell off a cliff and died before my very eyes. I saw his fawn follow him, jumping off the cliff too. So I quickly used a rope to lasso the fawn back up.

I adopted that fawn and tried to raise it. Others did the same thing. But after awhile, mine died.

In that dream, I was moping around the house, refusing to laugh with anyone, refusing to try to smile for them.

My friends were hurt that just because I lost my fawn after only a couple of days, I had to become like that. They tried to cheer me up.

I resented the other people and their fawns. I thought it was unfair about how they can raise their fawns so well, whereas mine had to die. I loved that fawn so much, basically because I was the one who saved it from its first call of death.

But there were reasons for the death of the fawn, even after I poured all my love, time and attention on it. After I realised that even though my heart is broken and I feel worn out, the world doesnt stop spinning for me.

I then smiled for my friends. I tried my best to have fun and in the end I did. I was still hurting about my dead fawn but I told myself to get over it. And I saw the significant change in my friends' moods and I also found myself having more fun.

After that, I woke up due to a phone call.

I woke up feeling sad and lonely, but now as I thought my dream through, I discovered many learning points from it.

Getting over a loss is always hard, but it is also always the right and best thing to do. We can learn from them, instead of thinking of it all the time and resenting others.

Like the fawn, there are things that are extremely precious to us even after just one or two days of aquiring it.

Dont brode over things you've lost. If my friends in the dream werent persistent in making me smile again, I would've lost them. So...Moping about losing one thing may cause you to lose many other things close to you.